CAR SEX IN HIGH SCHOOL, A Selection From THE SUN LOVES EVERY PLANET

I remember our first kiss

Your lips

On the back porch of your house

Reaching for mine

It was short

Sweet

No tongue

I thought about it all night

After I left

You knew

I would do anything for you

Sometimes I did

As we grew together and apart

Semesters turned into years

But somehow

We always came back together

The excitement I felt

When I found a note

In my locker from you

Made it impossible

To concentrate in class

As did

The sight of you

Walking towards me

Your beauty

Left me breathless

Every single time

I wasn’t alone

My friends

Couldn’t think straight either

They asked me

Countless questions about you

But I never told them anything

When I saw your breasts the first time

Touched them the first time

With my hands and mouth

I was transformed at that moment

Into a different person

The emotion

That flowed from you

When we’d lay in the park

Under a blanket

After I carried you piggyback

Over the rocks by the river

With my bare feet

Was incredible

It was innocent

It happened at a time

Before there was a gap

Between feeling and doing

Like there is now

Caution

Experience brings

But back then

It was pure emotion

I couldn’t get enough of you

Moaning in my ear

My stepfather didn’t believe me

When I told him

You were the prettiest girl at school

Until he saw you twirling a baton

At the football game in glittery nylons

I thought his eyes

Were going to pop out of his head

As we drank hot chocolate together

I wasn’t old enough

To understand that then

How you must have looked to him

To see a seventeen year old girl in love

One as beautiful as you

I think it made him hate me even more

School ended

And so did we soon after

I don’t even know why

We went our separate ways

Everything happened so fast

One minute we were eating

Popcorn at the movies

The next

We were dancing to champagne

But now

As I look back

The sound of your shoes

Coming off

And dropping to the floor

Knowing

I would soon be inside

Your soft

Wet

Warmth

My hands in your pants

Your tongue in my mouth

When our passion burned so bright

It seemed as though

We could touch the sun

On hot summer nights

Or cold winter evenings

After a night of vodka gimlets

And slow screws

Full of angst and dreams

No foreplay needed

No time for that

It was the heat of the moment

The only thing that mattered

Was to be inside you

Passion screaming

From every pore of our bodies

On whatever darkened street

We were parked

Your feet

Hanging out the window

As I gave it to you hard

Not wanting to part

We held each other

For as long as we could

Before leaving to go home

To this day

There is no sound more erotic

Than the memory of hearing

Your shoes hitting the floor

I feel grateful that it was that way

When the scent of your perfume alone

Could make me hard

I didn’t wonder if you loved me

Nor did I worry about our future

The only thing that mattered

Was how you made me feel

With every look and touch

I never told you that I loved you

The words seemed to big to say

I thought I was too young

To know what love was

We were just having fun

Going to parties

Laughing all night long

I want you to know

That I’ve never loved anyone

More than I loved you

I know you felt it too

Every time you looked at me

Your eyes told me that

I don’t know where you are now

I don’t know how many kids you have

I don’t know anything about your life

In a way I don’t want to know

I want to remember you

As you were then

Even though we lost touch

A long time ago

I still think of you often

Whenever I think of you

Whenever I think of us

I can’t help but wonder

How you could have

Anything left to give him

After what you gave to me